Devoting time to the start of my third book and family emergencies have distracted me from writing on my blog recently, yet each day on my journey in life brings me closer to understanding the direction in which I am heading.
When I began my blog in March, my search for a purposeful life (after retirement) was evident in my posts What Now and What Now Continued. I hoped that my mission would become evident to me through my writing. I often find that the veiled truth is revealed in such subtle ways that only come to light when I script my thoughts. I have struggled to find a constant theme for my blog, but I may be getting closer to identifying a topic of interest that would bring the results for which I was hoping.
Volunteering with a hospice group has provided me with an opportunity to share my poetry and books in a way that provides comfort and/or distraction to others who desperately want to find peace in their lives. The satisfaction that it brings to me means more to me than any number of books that I have sold. I would love to incorporate more of that into my blog.
Another opportunity to share what I consider a gift also presented itself this week. I am blessed me with a calm, insightful demeanor that seems to sooth others during a time of crisis. I find unexpected words of comfort and often, friends and family have related that my efforts helped them find peace.
My niece has been a caregiver for her grandmother for five years. Her grandma is in the final stages of Alzheimer’s disease and the time has come where caring for her in her home is no longer advisable. While some may find it a relief to relinquish the responsibility, others struggle with strong emotions, such as guilt, that surface during such a transition. Hopefully, my words are helping her to get through this painful experience.
My niece said she could not stop crying. I shared with her that grieving is not only appropriate, but necessary. It comforted her to realize what a special gift she has been given in the unique relationship with her grandmother she has served. It cannot be replicated by anyone who did not serve in the same role. For every difficult moment, there were many cherishing memories that she will be able to hold in her heart for years to come.
As caregiver, she served in a parenting role, always setting limits and having to insist on difficult tasks like bathing and taking medicines. Now she has the opportunity to return to the role of granddaughter and enjoy the remaining time by bringing love and tenderness to her grandmother during her final days.
The Peaks and Valleys of my life have blessed me with peace, strength, and a sort of wisdom, which are meant to be shared through my blog. Perhaps a new opportunity presents itself.
I’m glad to see you’re posting again, but maybe the break from blogging was just what you needed. Sometimes stepping away from my blog helps me return to it with a fresh perspective.
Thanks Amanda. There are days when I’m sure I wouldn’t be missed if I stopped writing, but something inside me keeps pushing me to not give up.
Thank you diane i am crying but your so right and thankyou for being the family rock we love you very much and very thankful for everything you do you are a very special lady love your sister inlaw
Thanks Dorie.